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So I’ve not been looking forward to writing this email… but It has to be said
I know I’m not the only one who has felt this way
I’m not the only one who has experienced pain, heartbreak and loss
I’m not the only one who has made bad decisions, broke down and hit rock bottom
I’m not the only one who has been depressed, broken and felt totally stuck and alone
and I know I’m not the only one who has used ANYTHING they could get their hands on to distract themselves from the pain
So even though it’s very uncomfortable for me to talk about this. This email is for YOU.
It was March 2009.
In the space of one month…
My “highschool sweetheart”, the first girl I had ever truly loved, dumped me for her male best friend (Which I don’t blame her for – I’ll explain later)
and my Grandfather was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and shortly after passed away
Two and a half years before…
I had met “Sweetheart” at a bus stop back in my home town of Stafford
She was beautiful, funny and smart
We did EVERYTHING together, we were inseparable
One of those couples that makes you feel kind of sick because they are so “in love”
At the tender age of 18 I had my whole future planned out…
Kids, marriage, everything!
It couldn’t have been more perfect
Then one night everything changed
I was at a house party drinking way too much as young people do
and in my drunken stupor I ended up fooling around with another girl
So what did I do?
I kept it a secret
A carried on the relationship, lying to my girlfriend’s face about what had happened
I vividly remember her saying to me “you would never cheat on me, right?”
and I would LIE and say “Never”
It tore me up inside
The guilt was unbearable
I felt like I was carrying a two tonne weight around on my shoulders
Constantly paranoid about my lies being exposed
So what did I do?
I projected my problems onto her and accused HER of lying instead of confessing the truth
It makes me sick thinking about it these days
But eventually, all of this caught up with me…
I started suffering with SERIOUS anxiety to the point where I didn’t eat for three days because I felt sick to my stomach
Until one day…
It became too much to bear and I told her the truth.
and she ended the relationship
She couldn’t forgive me for 6 months of lying to her face (and I don’t blame her…)
and I was left heartbroken, empty and alone
Then a week later I found out she was now dating her “best friend” which left me feeling crushed
and to make matters worse, my grandfather passed away shorty afterwards
at 18 I was not equipped to deal with the situation I’d got myself into
I could barely get myself out of bed in the morning and became very depressed
So I distracted myself from my emotions with anything I could get my hands on
All of my anger, heartache, frustration, depression and pain – I tried to cover it all up
I started drinking heavily 3 times week and blamed it on “being a student”, I started rewarding myself with junk food every time I exercised, I was sabotaging my own life and purposefully not taking care of myself
I was OUT OF CONTROL.
Just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse… they did.
What happened next was one of the most humiliating and soul destroying moments of my entire life… I don’t think I have ever felt so powerless and pathetic
Tomorrow we’re going to revisit that moment together and I’m going to attach for you our TRINITY Quick & Easy Smoothies eBook for FREE that includes 12 delicious, fat-burning smoothies
But ONLY if you open my email tomorrow!
It’s going to be titled [Ch 4 of 9] “This Can’t Be Happening…”
Ben “Heartbroken” Hughes
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